Never Satisfied

I allowed others words to label me, sometimes I was called outside of who I am, like “fat butt,” “thick’ems,” “fat a%%,” and other choice of words. I allowed what others called me to suppress, low self-esteem, insecurities, discomfort, and pain that I held for years. So, even when I lose the weight I sometimes still see that “fat girl,” because that’s what I was use too. “Never Satisfied.”

I’m sharing this, because I was talking with my Coach and I asked him, is it normal to feel like this. It’s a mind thing! When I lose the weight, I see myself looking and feeling nice, but because of the thoughts I have carried, about what others have called me, it’s easy to pick up a piece of cake or a bag of chips and eat them all. If I gain the weight or a few pounds back, it’s ok, because it was my normal. “Never satisfied.”

Today, I’m a mother of 8 Beautiful children, I’m in a size 10-12, and I grind every day in the gym and sometimes I’m still not satisfied. WHY? When we allow our own thoughts and what others may say about us, it causes us to lock ourselves in a room, go into depression, have self-doubt, insecurities and everything else that comes with it!! I say this today, because I am working on me and you should do the same! Yours might not be weight loss, but I guarantee it’s something that you deal with that causes you to stay stuck.

Don’t allow whatever that thing you are dealing with to handicap you no more, talk to someone get it all out, so that healing can take place! I will no longer feel “never satisfied”… I pray daily for the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; He is working on me and my thoughts! I have to believe what God says about me, no matter what size I am!! Thanks Coach Will Clewis, for the talk!!

Be Encouraged!❤
~Trina